Caring too much- No more!
Posted on Saturday, January 31, 2009, at 11:08 PM
heyapologies again!
i realise that i have been saying sorry to u guys
more and and more often.
its as though most of my post are getting this habit
haha!
been very busy these few days..
you know. Chinese new year and stuffs..
well.. haha
today i am not going to blog about CNY
i mean, you guys have been reading other people's cny story way too much
you guys need something else...
and i am proud to say that i am able to offer that!
One have to do some self-reflection
from time to time.
just to think about how things are going in his/her life
how things should be.
and how things are.
and i have been doing so..
i wanted to start a brand new year
i want to make 2009 a great year for me..
i know some of you might think
"Come on, this is like almost the 2nd month of 2009, isnt it abit too late?"
No. its still CHINESE NEW YEAR!
a new year
ya..
After some of the reflection
the main thing is that.
i feel that i have always been caring about things too much.
thinking about it and for it more than i should.
thus giving others the chance to take me and my doings as something
that is suppose to be there.
in other words Granted..
and they are subconsiously dependent on me..
adding on to the existing stress level that i already have.
and i thought that
with a new year
i would like to have a different form of life..
i want to change.
not totally but just parts where i think it will make my life more
exciting and cherished.
For the things that i cared too much for.
you guys will slowly notice that i will not be doing so much anymore
i want to live a life where
i am comfortable in and not one that
i will have a low self estem ( is that how we spell it?)
Gosh, actually i do have alot to share
but when i start to write it doesnt seems to flow out
haha
i will add on to it once i remember more
that i promise
to everyone out there!
happy chinese new year!