Simplicity.

Pool!

Posted on Thursday, September 18, 2008, at 9:07 PM

beside going to the Home, i only went out

once this whole week...

as i didnt really wanna tired myself..
need alot of rest b4 for the big trip..

well. went of NPU (Ngee Ann Poly Ultimate)

frisbee training... hmm actually should i just say

Self training as... hiax.. its like we are the only few whom

are reallly interested and serious abt this NPU thingy..

only this few of us want to do well for tournaments..

hiax... i mean...

nvm i dont wann say much..

the sun was BBQ hot...

gosh... but i kinda like it , as finally i can get the tann

i want...

after the training Zi yang and me actually planned to

swim

but in the end we ended up playing Pool with Yong jia
and Wei xun..

hehe

talked TONS of crap over there..

haha i mean .. tt is wat we do best i guess

hehe..

u know us.. no crap means no life..

haha!!!

yeah thats abt all..
oh ya... as i will be away for a trip..
wont be around to update my blog

and might not have the chance to reply u guy's sms or email or comments etc..

so forgive me k!
hehe

will tell u guys more abt my trip when i get back..
till then..
take care guys!

Old Folks home!

Posted on Monday, September 15, 2008, at 8:19 PM

This was certainly a different day for me..
i visited an Old Folks Home. ( actually not one, but some sort)

ok however, this was my 1st time visiting an Old Folks Home..

no, i should say that this is my 1st time visiting a Home, of any sort.

it was ceratainly a totally raw experience.
one that i never thought i would live to experience.

it was not exactly the kinda visit tt others usually will say when they visit a Home..

i mean.... when i 1st step into the canteen and look at the folks.

it was like.. pairs and pairs of sorrow souls were glazing at me..

i felt weird, uneasy i must say..

there was a total of 188 folks or we call them resident there..

188 is a LARGE sum..

there is actually so many people homeless

and u guys have to know that

there isnt only one such Home in Singapore.

Since young, stories abt ppl gg to Old Folks Home (OFH)
were that, the residents there will keep talkin to us abt their life story

but this wasnt so.....

most of the resident didnt really wanna talk..

and the few of them we wished to talk were not really understood by us

as not all or i mean only A FEW of us spoke dialgue...

hiax..

we were like playing... wat u call that "shareds?" and "Taboo"
with them.... trying to guess wat are they trying to say

just that we are using different language.

but wat strike me the hardest was

1st- their appearance...... wrinkled skin .... broken teeths....

super extremely short haird.....

it kept me thinking... we teenagers take our youth and looks for granted...

one day... just one day i will be like them...

2nd- at the Home there were sences where u will see abled residents will be pushing the

whell chair bound resident around... that really touched me..

i cant really explain the feeling in me.. but its just.......

will i end up in such a Home when i age?

most of the resident there are kind grouchy. moody etc..
why is it so? are they mad abt being left there?
i really pity them.... or should i say FEEL for them.

its like they have worked their ass off for the past few decades

and why did they work so hard for?
just do that they will be stuck in this kinda Home
where they are bored each and every day...

then they should be enjoying their Old Golden age. but instead now

suffering there?

while doing our activites with the folks..
some didnt participate...
i was just lookin at them...
they wont just look at their nails... or feet or just daze
and just let time passs..

and each and every day they do that...
its like.... each day they we wasting their time
im not cursing them
but arent they like waiting for Death to knock on the door?

i chatted with one of the resident

and i asked wat do they usually do when no one visits..
and he said. nth much just watch TV and eat
then i asked wat do they usally play
then he said..
nth, we are too old to . just some normal excerise

and one more thing tt i was taken aback
he actually called his Dorm or Room
his "HOUSE" or "HOME"
while talking
he will say'' usually after doing this we will go back HOME"
when tt word struck me.

i pictured a Home where all family memebers are there
taking care of each other lookin after each other

and having fun...
but when i thought again..
his HOME was just... a corner of the room with his bed and shelf
no offence my friend
BUT WAT KINDA HOME IS THAT!!!

WHERE IS HIS FAMILY MEMEBERS?

GUYS LET ME BEGG U
NVR TO SEND UR RELATIVE...ANY OF THEM
TO A HOME...
PLS.........

do to others what u want others to do to u!

Is grass always greener on the other side

Posted on Friday, September 5, 2008, at 10:15 PM

Can i ask you guys something?
Is grass ALWAY greener on the other side?

or is it just seems and thought as its greener?

do people who take things for granted always think this way?
or are they just too greedy?

People always think that
oh, her/his life is much better than mine
oh, if i were to be in tt sch, things would have been better..

oh, if i were to have "that". wouldnt it be great?

am i right to say that?

but im i also right to say this..
you might think that the other patch of grass is greener than ur patch
but have u ever though of this...

may be, ur patch of grass is greener as compared to another patch..

someone else is comparing theirs with yours...

so this comparations nvr seems to end..

yeah i do admit that im such a person
the phrase tt's always at the edge of my mouth is

" if i were to known better" ( usually in chinese)

i always compare my life with someone else!
feeling inferior etc.....

haha!
silly aye!

but today im not saying abt the things or the life tt others have

but im comparing me, myself , as a human with others

in the way they bring themselves and in the way they live..

in other words, i might be losing confidence in myself.

im a hard shell alright...
from the outside, i may seem fine, normal
but inside.... is where the real and genuine things are...

i seriously dont have confidence in myself as much as i did

to be able to compare myself with others..

sometimes i think to myself
"stozer, wat are u good at?"
i will just daze and nth seems to come out..

i do not have the ability to be on par with others..
when situation arrive where comparision are un-avoidable
i seems to fear the opponent..

i will tell myself that
hmm.. tt guy will do a better job than i

he will be a greater guy than i

he will treat her well than i

he will blah blah blah than i...

why do i feel this way?

may be i wasnt born to be involve in this kinda battle

where u have to compete with others in order to win someone..

may be i was born lose such a battle...

a battle where i will think or say that i will fight through
but when it really comes in my face..

...hiax.....

coward u might say..

not brave enough to fight for something that

i treasure and love most..

i have tried to tell myself that i can do it..

no one can win me ( hehe)
i use to encourage myself..

however, the opponents always seem to be at the winning edge..

yeah may be i was just born to be a little nobody

just someone tt ppl can step over from time to time...

there are many things in life worth fighting for..

i know that the "thing" ( actually cant say thing) tt im saying now

is definitely worth fighting for..

they always say. in order to really treasure something
u have to fight for it 1st..

but do i really have the faith in myself to be able to fight??

am i even worth the chance to fight. . . .. . . .