I was just listening to the radio and the song
‘apologize’ by timberland came on air.
I began to really listen to the lyrics and feel the song,
and I release that for the past few weeks,
many things has happento my life.
Many things have ‘spiced’ it up.
things that I rather not happen.
and things that I would really wanna change the ending if
I was given another chances to do so.
there seems to be a lot of songs that can be used to describe my life now..
my feelings, my thoughts.. lol!!
sometimes I even think if the singers were singing about my life..

as I was saying, the song ‘apologize’
I have done something really ignorant that hurted someone.
someone that would be the last person that I would ever wanna hurtin my entire life.
Someone that I would never wanna even hurt
I am aware that apologizing wouldn’t make a difference.
As, just by saying the word‘sorry’ doesn’t make a difference.
Just by saying that word, doesn’t make time rewind.
(Oh how I wish it can, then I can change the outcome)
but I don’t know how or what else can I do to make u feel better
or is it just an excuse.
Do ppl say sorry to one another just to make themselves feel
better, but not for the victim?
I am lost,
what can I do to make ur trust be back to me?
what can I do to make u not to be this disappointed?
what can I do to make things improve between us?
what can I do to make you not feel so little abt me?

Im the best person in this whole white world to know that
this isn’t the best time to happen such a thing between us.
when there are competitors everywhere.
where they are most likely in the winning edge
where I am fighting helplessly with parangs and spears
when they are all armed with tanks and jets.

Its like the 1st series of the show SHERK.
the one who is able to rescues Fiona would be the one that she fall in loves and marries
if anyone of you becomes the Dragon.
Which knight will you be more afraid of.
someone with parangs and spears riding a donkey
or
someone with tanks and jets?

I have to admit, that I am just like SHERK
I may not be very dashing,
im not one that when walks
across the street, ppl would just daze at me with their mouth and eyeswide open.
I may not be as Cool as some ppl.a
nd when it comes to relationships.
Im like SHERK again.
I may not say everything with my mouth,
sometimes I also may not do thingsthat show u that I care and love you.
I might be stubborn at times..
but in my heart, I know that you are the one.
It may seems as though my mouth is hard but heart is SUPER soft.
May be its my bad for not
showing or expressing my feelings out. But……

This might sound rubbish to most of you guys
but STOZER is shy!!!
lol ( guys, stop ur ‘ yeah-right’ reaction)
its true, I don’t know how many of you believe it but yeah.
when u are with ur friends.
I don’t really feel comfortable approaching you.
Even if I did, I will act very odd wards.
May be its because I don’t know them well or some sort.

that night seeing you so high with ur friends
so excited to congrats your band friends…
I wanted to approach you,
even asked JL to get ready the camera
but something just struck my mind,
‘ will I be a turn off for her?’
will I be interrupting?
its like, suddenly I feel as though u are the COOL gang
and im just the average guy
( must be watch too much ang moh shows)

But, no worries.
I will over-come myself; the inner me
that is somehow causing trouble between us..
and I will do all I can to make things go better for us..

but will it be too late to really apologize to someone?