am i still bad with separation?
am i born to be a sticky spider web
and not be like water
which just flow off of things with no resistance?
and only leaving its trail, allowing others to know that
it was once here?


No matter whether im a spider web or water
the fact is that, the feelin in me is still there
the feeling that i thought i has surpress deep in my heart and mind.
the feeling that i thought i have already got over it..
but it seems as though i was wrong, again!!
the feeling can nvr be forgotten.
it played too big a part of me, for me to forget abt it!
how could i even think that it has not been a part of me now?
i was too ignorant. too naive,
my thoughts were to simple.
i belittled it...
i know it now!!!
i was wrong!!


i was been giving another chance, to relive the old days..
the days when stozer was made stozer..
the days when my chin was up high, and my chest was up!
the days when i had nothing but fun and more fun!
the days where sweat where given up, and sometimes even blood was oozed out
the days where laughter was so common tt many thought tt it was another
form of communication.
the days tt my teeth were always reflecting the sunlight against others
( as when i smile, my teeth are shown)


some of u might be thinking the wrong direction already..
i just got back from SSC selection camp and Health and Fitness camp
organised by our very own Kranji Sec 3 SSC!!!!!
although i wasnt very actively involved in all activities
but just observing how the sec 3 ssc does things,
and just lookin at them running around, joking, laughin, pratically just having fun
reminds me of how much fun my batch and i had.


the Perfect thing was that
this year's camp site was the same site as the camp
that my batch organised the selection camp 3 years ago!
with that, memories were gushing into my mind easier..
looking at each corner, i could remember what did we do
and it was as though at every corner something funny happen..
Nathan and i was sharing some of those funny things with
Yi han and Isabel and they asked
'' eeyeer why did they have so many things happen de?"
not to worries girls, ur SSC journey has only started..
you girls still have a long way to go, lots more fun waiting for u!

This camp, not only allowed me to remember my days as an SSC member
it also allowed me to catch up with Nathan, Miss Wong, Mr Yeo, Mr Seah, Mr Ong and Mr Kong.
although Mr Teo was there too, but he left on the 2nd day..
and the important thing was that, i was given a chance to get to know the sec 3
alittle better.
and i have to say, they are really bonded..!
much more bonded then my batch!
GOOD JOB GUYS!

however, said to say tt
while i was in that camp, my old weakness started to come back
i started to compare my life when i was in kranji and my current life.
i have to admit that i had MUCH more fun in kranji
did much more crazy stuff there
known more friends there.
but no matter how hard or how much i compare.
does it change the fact that i am already out of it?
i am still in the Kranji-Dreamy-Island.

To be frank, my yellow SSC shirt has been my wadrobe for
quite sometime, and i havent even wore it since last year's Mid autumn festival?
i mean you guys cant blame me, what other chance do i have to wear that?
Able to wear it again... MAN is that feeling just great!
haha!!

and i have to agree with Zilia~!!
'' I LOVE SSC!!''

i have to say a few words b4 i end this post..
For all the sec 2, congrats to all those tt got selected, welcome to the family
and for those who didnt get selected dont be sad.. its alright!!

Thank, Mr Yeo for allowing me to go back this year! THANKS ALOT!
Thank, Yi han for staying another night to have more fun, although u have tons of un-finished homework!! thank you!!
Thank, Isabel for Pang seh-ing me!!! thanks alot ya!
Thank, Danial chia for calling me emo!
Thanks the WHOLE sec 3 ssc for not outcasting me!!

you guys take care k!!
and do SSC proud!
stay happy!

P.S - haha Yihan so did u keep the 2 apple sticker?
hehe :P!!!!