Is it because i did something darn evil in my past life?
or
Is it because i havent been praying enought to God?
or
Is it because i have been a very Bad Boy?
or
Is it because i havent been filial to my parents?
or
What is is because of?

Why is Heaven treating me this way?
i am truely hurt this time...
I have never felt so badly hurt before.
Is it because i loved her way too much?
Everything was going nicely ( or at least i think it is, as she seldom tells me her problem)
why did it have to end this way?
is this some sort of punishment for me?

If it is, God, Please use some other ways to punish me
please dont play with our relationship
i treasure it way too much...
losing her once, is too many!!!
You can always find other ways to do it
but NOT this...

Although we seldom meet, although we sledom go out
although we dont really act like a couple when we are outside.
but inside us, we are already one...

No Sun is able to light up my mood
No Night can be darker then my mood.
What is a rainbow when all i see are dark clouds?
i am not strong, not strong at all..
i am weak! i cant take such a blow
i rather the whole world call me a 'Gay' or a ' Ah Qua'
then you leave me...
all i want is for you to be back.

people say that our hearts are on the left side or ur chest.
but for me , whenever i think of this
i feel very umcomfortable in between my chest
its like, someting is stuck there.
i wanna to shout, and may be even cry
but its just cant.........

I HATE YOU! ME! HE! HER! THEY! US!
I hate every single thing!!
this life is so unfair!!
why must we go through so much things while
other can have a safe sailing?
im just an ordinary person, im no where special
im just STOZER CHAN
not super man nor bat man not even iron man!

i might not remember every single thing that u said to me
but im sure you told me this once in ur sms
'' I won't leave you!''
i still remember clearly that i just came out of science centre's mac
after a meeting
while crossing the road
and your sms came.
Then i felt very secured, very glad
but now..........

i had a hunch that this would happen
i thought that i was ready
i thought that i was just thinking too much
i thought that you wont make this happen
but once it was standing infront of me..
i was taken aback. i didnt know what to do!

To be frank, what's my view is
there is exactly NO reason in this whole wide world
for us to separate..
separation shouldn't even be in our choices...