You are just like the sands on the beach.
The harder i hold on to u, the faster u slip away from my palms.
Seeing the beads of sand just slid off my palm.....
Feeling the weight on my hand getting lighter and ligther,
just staring blankly at my hands while u go away....

Once you have totally left my hands and merge with
the beach, you wanna me to treat u like the other sands..
in order to locate u, it will take me 198 days
Not knowing if i will still get a chance to hold on to u after that.

standing on the beach, lookin at the sunrise and sunset alone.
the feeling of empty-ness engulf me.
im lost, alone, fearful,
looking around at the whole beach,
there is no one with me.
im all alone.
tried to search and locate ur shadow.
but the only one that i could find was mine.
just mine.

Are sunrise and sunset meant to be appreciate by a
single boy?
Is the sunrise and sunset meant for one or two?
Is the sun just like me?
waking up and sleeping each day, hoping that tomorrow will be a better day
praying that the next day will be the day that we have been waiting
since long?

Are you the Moon, and am i the Sun?
where, although we both exist in the same world, same universe.
but we seldom get to see each other
the Sun comes out during the day
while the Moon comes out during the night
and onces in a very long time
they get to met and see each other.
althought its only a few sec
but at least they still spend time together
each time after each met, always hoping that
the next will arrive soon
( The Eclipse)

Should i be just like the Sun
always shining on others, bringing life and laughter to others
although alone?
knowing that one day the Moon (you) will be back with me?
or will she?

The Sun might seem always bright, sunny
giving u guys an impression of a cheery, sunshine boy
Some might be happy to see the Sun
Some might love to see the Sun
but have u guys ever thought
who does the Sun wanna to see most?

No matter how the day pass by
whether the Sun is shining up there
or whether the sky is covered by dark clouds
or the earth is shined by the Moon's ray
or whatever
I will Always be YOUR Baby...

What abt you?

Is it because i did something darn evil in my past life?
or
Is it because i havent been praying enought to God?
or
Is it because i have been a very Bad Boy?
or
Is it because i havent been filial to my parents?
or
What is is because of?

Why is Heaven treating me this way?
i am truely hurt this time...
I have never felt so badly hurt before.
Is it because i loved her way too much?
Everything was going nicely ( or at least i think it is, as she seldom tells me her problem)
why did it have to end this way?
is this some sort of punishment for me?

If it is, God, Please use some other ways to punish me
please dont play with our relationship
i treasure it way too much...
losing her once, is too many!!!
You can always find other ways to do it
but NOT this...

Although we seldom meet, although we sledom go out
although we dont really act like a couple when we are outside.
but inside us, we are already one...

No Sun is able to light up my mood
No Night can be darker then my mood.
What is a rainbow when all i see are dark clouds?
i am not strong, not strong at all..
i am weak! i cant take such a blow
i rather the whole world call me a 'Gay' or a ' Ah Qua'
then you leave me...
all i want is for you to be back.

people say that our hearts are on the left side or ur chest.
but for me , whenever i think of this
i feel very umcomfortable in between my chest
its like, someting is stuck there.
i wanna to shout, and may be even cry
but its just cant.........

I HATE YOU! ME! HE! HER! THEY! US!
I hate every single thing!!
this life is so unfair!!
why must we go through so much things while
other can have a safe sailing?
im just an ordinary person, im no where special
im just STOZER CHAN
not super man nor bat man not even iron man!

i might not remember every single thing that u said to me
but im sure you told me this once in ur sms
'' I won't leave you!''
i still remember clearly that i just came out of science centre's mac
after a meeting
while crossing the road
and your sms came.
Then i felt very secured, very glad
but now..........

i had a hunch that this would happen
i thought that i was ready
i thought that i was just thinking too much
i thought that you wont make this happen
but once it was standing infront of me..
i was taken aback. i didnt know what to do!

To be frank, what's my view is
there is exactly NO reason in this whole wide world
for us to separate..
separation shouldn't even be in our choices...

If love isnt for you and me,
then I don’t know who love is made for.

people often say that when a couple starts a relationship,
their minds and heart will interlink.
a party will often affect the other party’s mood and thoughts.
to be frank, at first I totally didn’t believe in it…
I was like thinking, how can it be…
my heart it mine and your heart is yours, same goes for the mind
that was AT FIRST.
but now, I agree to it to the fullest extent that I can go.

just by reading your sms I can sense your mood
and not knowingly it has also affected mine..
I will get very annoyed, emo, having hack care kind of attitude
when your sms’s mood isn’t goodbut when your mood is great,
I will just feel excited when reading your sms.y
ou, and you guys out there might not believe this
but it doesn’t really matter ,
as I know its true. That’s wat counts

Now I just feel so….
I don’t know how to say
I just feel that I haven’t been myself these few days.
Am I a great guy?(HOPE SO)
Do I get your hints to me? (NO)
Do I know what you are thinking b4 u even say it?(NOT SURE)
Am I irritating you? ( MAY BE?)
Am I the guy you always long to be with even when you were small? ( OH GOD! PLEASE YES?)

Im just very moody right now
there are a lot of voices and words that are bombarding within me
wanting to gush out of my body, my mouth, my nose, my ears
but there are somethings that
It is better to be kept inside
even if it is uneasy!

After all these,
all I wanna to tell YOU and to tell you guys is that
I LOVE HER very much indeed!!
hope that she can feel that too!

(sorry for the tone in this post, received a not so good sms from her)