have i made the wrong decision?
was i too implusive while making that decision?
did i look at the big picture when i made that decision?
should i even be the one to make that decision?
what were my reasons for that decision?

i dont know why but im feeling weird..
feeling as though i made the wrong decision.
not in relationship of course ( that is going very well, so you know)
but in the choice of which school i should go.
i remember quarreling with my mom telling her that i wan to go NP instead of SP
but i dont know
after coming back from NP's Freshmen Orientation Camp ( FOC)
i am starting to regretting entering to NP?
why do i have such a feeling?
that i cant explain as me myself don't really know!

i am really starting to look at the bad side of NP and
thinking of the good side of SP
my mom and i even have the decision of transfering me to SP!
i really do have to choose the school that i like
as i have to be there for 3 whole years.
i loved kranji
thus the 4 years over there was a blast
and it went very fast!
i want my poly life to be as fun as what i had in kranji
or even better!

the camp that i went was how to say....
not as fun as i thought it will be
or shall i say not the camp that i usually go to
to me, if time were to go back
i dont think i will re-enter and register for that camp
dont get me wrong, im not saying that the camp is TOTALLY un-fun
its very fun to others but to me its just.... ya!
as most of the camp or in fact all the camps that i been ar
either OBS, leadership camps or course camps
and this time is just a orientation camp
lesure camp.
there were ALOT and i mean ALOT of cheers going on!
too much cheering for me!

is it due to me no enjoying the camp
that caused me to have a bad impression on NP?
i will be going for another NP camp tomorrow
and until now i cant make up my mind whether i should go or not!
will it be as fun as the other camps that i went b4
or will be as ( not my type of camp) just like FOC?

the Main and Sole purpose of me going to FOC camp was to make new friends
but that camp didnt give me the mood to
the camp was the first camp
that make me not talk much, not to be active in the games , no mood for me to be high!
i was totally a low profile nobody over there
i didnt even care how people look at me or how i look!
i didnt gel my hair and most of the time it was very messy!
for the whole camp
i only met 4 guy friends, no girl
4 friends in a 4D3N camp?

if so i might as well not go for that camp?
the aim for me going for tomorrow's camp is also to make friends
but if im also going to make such a small number of friends
I MIGHT AS WELL NOT GO?!!?!?!??!
am i right to say so?
hiax

NP has really changed my impression of the campus
and camps...